Soul Awakening : My Journey toward Wholeness
I am in the process of writing a book
which I hope to finish in the not too distant future.
Synopsis
Basically, it is my autobiography interspersed
with true accounts of spirituality and the paranormal which
have accompanied me all my life. It is written in a laid-back
style and encourages the reader to open their closets
and release their skeletons! If I had not been so afraid
of mine, my life may have taken a different turning.
What Is Covered In This Book?
In many ways it will be a lesson on what
NOT to do!
They say a wise man learns by the mistakes
of others, a fool by his own. Wonder what category that
places me in? My learning experiences had to be repeated
time and time again before my inborn obstinacy and 'bloody
mindedness' finally relented! While writing the chapters,
I had to take myself back in time and I must say I am amazed
at the countless mistakes and wrong turnings I have taken
over the years. Yes, hindsight is a marvellous thing.
Many incidents are extremely funny and
show an alarming lack of common sense.
Along with my life story, there are many
observations and anecdotes about life in general. These
come from many different positions as I grew up and encountered
the swings and roundabouts we all encounter. If the completed
book is never published at least I have left something of
interest for future generations of my family. It will give
them a unique insight, not just to me as a person, but also
to how life changes and opinions about many things change
as the years go by. What was once thought as acceptable
may no longer be so, likewise, what was once thought to
be completely unacceptable becomes the norm!
We all have skeletons in our cupboards, but
some of us have held them prisoner for far too long. This
can deplete our psychic energy to a tremendous degree, plus
the skeletons don't like it much either! Many of us live
our lives confined by convention. "What would the neighbours
say?" is a common theme many of us grew up with.
I am saying "Bugger the neighbours!"
They have enough to contend with keeping
their own skeletons prisoner! I am not advocating that we
all go around telling everybody all our guilty secrets,
we all need and deserve to have our privacy and our boundaries.
Guilt
No, what I am saying is that we should
not be scared to own our own mistakes and be willing to
confide in others if the need arises. In that way we can
all help each other and throw off the terrible millstone
of guilt that can so weigh us down. There are women who
were forced to give up their babies for adoption many years
ago. Many of them were so ashamed they could never even
confide in their husbands when they got married! Many
still cry for their lost child in secret! What an unfair
world we can inhabit. It takes two to tango!
Fear
I applaud the rape victims who are willing
to 'go public' in order that the rapist is caught and to
send the clear signal out to other women. 'we are the
innocent parties' It can happen to anybody. However,
once one woman has had the courage to come forward, then
this is an encouragement for all the others to open up and
come forward as well.
It is the sense of isolation that can
so damage us.
If we refuse to keep the skeletons in, if we can plainly
and proudly state 'all these things are what made me who
I am today' we can comfort and inspire others to do also.
Separation
Our separation from one another is simply
what the Hindus and Buddhists called 'Maya.' This is the
great illusion of life. It is also one major reason why
we feel able to fight wars and harm our brothers and sisters.
If we convince ourselves we are totally separate, then we
can assuage our conscience when we see the starving millions
on the television or walk quickly past the beggar in the
street. Yes, lets all make a pledge to release those skeletons
from their years of confinement. Expose them to the light
of the sun and they will fade away. Your burden will seem
much lighter.
Stigma
Consider the stigma of child sexual abuse.
Always very prevalent, always, up until very recently covered
up and never revealed. Entire lives ruined, trust broken
down, families and marriages destroyed, and why? Because
people felt their particular skeletons were much bigger
and more shameful than anybody else's! Only now, when the
truth is revealed, are people able to get the help and support
they so desperately need.
It is still very painful, but with the new
awareness, children are no longer afraid to confide in someone
for fear of not being believed. Police checks have been
introduced for staff to all vulnerable establishments to
protect those most at risk.
So many of us are scared to reveal how
we really feel.
We are sure people will not look at us in the same way
again. That is only because we have all bought into the
same way of thinking. I had my own skeletons and let them
out. There was one hell of a clatter of bones!
I am not ashamed to say I have been depressed
for instance.
There is so much stigma and wrong thinking
relating to mental illness. Well, one in four people will
suffer from it at some point in their lives and it is forecast
that those statistics are set to rise dramatically, so we
better get over it... and soon! Not only that, we
still do not really understand the nature of it. So
many times it comes accompanied with creativity, there is
some connection there awaiting discovery.
Disempowerment
Depression! I unmask you!
Thief in the night
Who knows no pity
Slinks into a life
As a virus, carrying devastation and suffering
Like a mantle of wet clothes
On a shivering body
You know no comfort
A shroud of despair
You
squeeze the throat
Constricting the chest
And the mind, disenabling
A happy thought
Abductor of reason! Pillager of optimism!
Slithering silently
And taking up residence
Putting down roots
Claiming "squatter's rights"
Take
your cold, slimy, hand of dread
Off my fellow traveller!
You have no business here
Slink back to the darkness
Dark begets dark... but here there is light!
Separator of families
Layer of the eggs of death
Murderer of dreams!
Your hour has past.
I expose you!
Now Go!
© Alison Stormwolf
Conclusion
This book contains the true accounts of my
quest to find the Truth in life beyond the veil of superficiality.
This has led me down many paths, then ultimately to a position
of profound belief in God and the spirit realm. I believe
that God is to be found in all of creation. I have been
blessed with the Holy Spirit Himself which was one of the
highlights of my life (it came accompanied by the charismatic
'Gift of Tongues'). However, I just could not accept the
fundamentalist beliefs that Born Again Christians had to
embrace. I believe that all roads lead to God The Father.
I have had several deeply spiritual experiences and many
disturbing run-ins with the darker side of things. All this
will be revealed in the book.
In retrospect, I realise that so many people
were put into my life for a reason. So many lessons!
Some had to be repeated when I did not learn first time
round. There have been many spiritual guides on my path!
Not
all angels have wings and not all 'spirit guides' are in
the spirit!
I have learned SO much from animals.
I am not only an animal lover, I acknowledge
the teaching they have given me over the years. I forecast
that very soon we will discover just how little we have
understood our animal friends and we will hang our heads
in shame at the way we have treated many of them. We often
talk about someone who has committed a terrible crime as
'an animal!' This is SO wrong.
Who can teach us unconditional love like
a dog?
Who can teach us respectful, fearless communal
living like the majestic wolf who mates with his partner
for life?
I love wolves, they have tremendous integrity.
Animals are a wonderful blessing in our lives
and although nature can indeed be cruel, animals are without
very many of the evil ways such as corruption, greed and
manipulation that can be found in mankind. They simply live
according to their natures. They deserve our respect.
Let Go of the Past
None of us can rewrite the past. We all make
mistakes. Some more than others. I could win the gold
medal! Most I learned from, some I am still working
on. It helps nobody at all to beat ourselves up about it.
A little trick of mine is to look up at the stars
in the sky at night and think about my problems, past or
present. Compared to the infinite, how small and insignificant
are these things that can rob us of our joy?
Guilt and shame are just huge drains of psychic
energy. Of course it is only normal to feel these things
at the time, we would be psychopathic if we did not. It
is prolonged guilt and shame we need to rid ourselves
of. I have heard it said that, at the end of the day, it
is not what we have done that causes us most regret, but
what we did not do, the words we did not say.
I feel very strongly that lack of self-esteem
is behind a huge amount of unhappiness, and I hope that
this book will encourage others to maybe be kinder to themselves.
Love is far more than a concept or an emotion!
It is the power which suffuses the universe
from an atom to a grain of sand, to the largest planet.
It is transformational because it comes from God and IS
the NATURE of GOD. It vibrates at a very high frequency
and so has the power to elevate the human spirit far beyond
the confines we have often made for ourselves.
The more we conquer our lower natures and
raise our vibrational levels, the more light we can contain.
We cannot truly love others until we can
truly love ourselves. I have not loved myself enough over
the years and so the reality that I created was not always
a happy one. I am learning every day, mostly from the people
I meet, these are often our greatest teachers.
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